aye aye aye.

im beginning to lose the touch of blogging alr. sighs.

so pls pardon me for not updating as much.

used to rmber that i like what, blogged every single day alright. and it was just like a compo essay with all my life details exposed to everyone. i think somebody ( cherry i think ) once said that i might as well go write a composition instead. to think of it, i find it rather amusing too. writing all your life's details and letting everyone on the net see the flaws present in your life. and then after sometime later, you start complaining that you have no privacy and be reduced to blogging in drafts. lol. but perhaps it because when you get too true on the net that people start to give comments on your life, and thats when u wont be able to take their comments.

( DIGRESSION: speaking of these people, i really detest and loathe them. i mean like, even if you are not happy with what the person does with his/her life, i believe still that there is no right for you to come and give mean comments and ostracise him/her. its HIS/HER life not yours. so what point does it make to give meaningless comments and then scorn and spam the person's blog. i really dont get it. like you know, just get a life or smth. )

so my point is that, sometimes i do have a urge to come and blog but when i come upon this page, i get really stucked. for example, i would have this idea or that something i want to say. but when i start typing, i cant put them in words and my mind simple just blank out ! ahh. dont u hate times like this. sighs. and when i try to randomly just type an entry to fu yan myself, i'll feel so...... (argh) because i find it so.. rubbish. (?)

BAHHHHH!

alright. i'll promise i'll try to figure out a way to blog like interestingly or smth next time.


been having alot of emotions recently. going through quite a lot of struggles too. you know, when times when u are so oblivious to a certain issue and then suddenly your eyes are opened wide to it and you see the ugly truth ? yeah, and u realise that its so hard to accept it because its just so.. wrong to you.

thats probably what im viewing and feeling right now, i guess.

been so oblivious to the world that when my eyes were opened to it, i felt so lost. like you see the rear ugly side of humans and be shown to the fact of what extent of damage they can do to others' life. their impact on other people's life that would bring so much suffering to them. and when u do get thrown in the face with all these, how would u react ?

i dont know. times like these, i feel really upset. but it serves to me as a reminder of God's grace to me. that without him, my life would be just as shrewed. but with Him, my life has been so filled with love, so filled with blessing. Thank You, Lord. amen. :D

right now, its probably tough to accept the facts but i still have to walk the path. it'll never be easy but i believe i can get by with God beside me.


meanwhile, mid years are just nxt week. so everyone, do jiayou huh.

Lord i pray for your blessings and wisdom to come upon us and guide us through this phrase. For we know with the strength of yours, we'll come out strong. amen.

UPDATE.

i realised its like what, once a week im doing an update. but good also lah, summarised everything. LOL.

hmm. so mid years are like around the corner ? less than 2 weeks i think.. and that's not good because i havent finished my revision ! ahh. but im trying not to stress myself abt it cos yup, LEAVE TO GOD ! :D

mon.

- rained rather heavily after sch ? yeah. had maths class after sch and time went pretty fast lah. cabbed down to KAP to study with wanyi and jingting after that. left ard 8 and there was this really big commotion going on about there. ALL the buses were lined up at the side and only cars were allowed to keep going. so jt claud and I were like, shit, terrorist attack ?! but quite scary leh, seeing ambulance and police arriving every now and then. decided to walk down road to check out and we realised that it was because a VERY BIG tree fell lah. cheys. haha. but it was really huge, the whole tree took 3 hours to clear man. LOL. pro. thank god we came out at the right time, waited for a little while more and we managed to get out of the place alr. whew ! reached home like at TEN ? haha. watched the news report on the issue though. LOL.

tues.

- rained rather hard too. (actually, it rained for almost the entire week) OH. i cant stand eng leh. seriously. as in just "her" lesson. ARGH. irritating. doesnt do anything and she just.. really cant stand it. i mean, talk to us in a nicer tone lah. ugh. whtever.

- went kap to study agn. yupp. left around 6 because i wanted to get my liverpool jersey at jurong pt. hohohoho ! im a happy kid ! i finally got the jersey. but they didnt have it in red alr, so i got white. (: hahaha. thanks to claudine who went with me. yaye. (: 198-ed down to my place and met up with both our parents. brought her to get her new skirt with her dad, then went to have dinner with mine.

wed.
- class cell postponed to fri cos alot of ppl cldnt make it. hmm.

- stayed bck in sch with anqi and xueen to study. lol. yupp, cldnt really concentrate for the whole day because i was suffering frm a relapse of flu. ughhh. /: so basically, i was just looking at the both of them doing their work while most of the time my mind was alr in somewhere else. /: haha. left for home around 5 plus and slept till ten in the night. woke up for ten mins and went back to sleep. LOL.

thurs.
- was late for sch. had a minor arguement with mum in the morning because she asked me not to go to school. claims i was having a slight fever, but i didnt want to miss school at this crucial stage ( u nvr know whn there might tips in sch huh. =p ) so yeah, was a lil' late lah. dad was speeding at 120km/h alr ? and i realised i seem to be in a rollercoaster every morning ! my heart goes -thump thump- just to be in dad's car. woah. LOL. imagine 120km/h just because i was running late, i cant think of wht speed he'll drive at if HE's running late. /= hahaha.

- anjo came back ! whew. praise God for healing her ! :D:D yupp. hmms, felt rather dizzy during morning assembly and had to sit down instead. went bck to class and i was in a semi-concious state alr. nice xinfang went down to get hot milo for me even though i didnt really finish it in the end. hahaha. thanks thou ! :D

- got our class tees and it was fab. ultra chic. lol.

- vomitted in the later part of the day. urghh. /:

- assembly was... ok? nothing much. haha. cldnt fall asleep though. strange. hmms.

- after sch was hilarious. jiafu and ruennsheng started singing and rs was just plain funny. he became star of claud and mine's video and hahaha, he's pretty nice sometimes leh. hahaha. but to put it in a negative light, we were kinda like bullying him lah. /: haha. went to je to eat after that with claud zhili jiafu and duchen. cherry joined us there too. yups. talked nonsense and made alot of noise at the foodcourt. haha. cabbed down for cell and we had a new friend ! haha. vanessa's pretty cool too. same league of mental. hahahahaha. fun fun fun. cell was good too ! presence of God was there, holy spirit was strong too ! LOVES !

- after cell cabbed ( agn ! /: ) down to some ulu association place at taman jurong with claud because she had to go get her scholarship thing. yup. the cab driver was also a christian and we had a nice time chatting with him ! (: haha. yupp. then reached the place alr.. er. somehow things were pretty screwed lah. turn out it wasnt today to get it so we left empty handed. garh. lol. went home and i watched lost. whee. so.. tantalizing. (: haha.

fri.

- SPORTS DAY ! whheee ! hahahaha. had class cell before that and yeah, just like wht anjo said in her blog, immersed in our prayers. (: even though some unhappy stuff happened before that, but yeah, glad hearts were eventually opened ! yups. Praise Him ! (:

- after that went to clem central with anjo and claud. then cabbed down to the stadium. reported for duty with mrchee and mrcheng. yups. did the starter's position and boy, THE GUN SOUND WAS ULTRA LOUD. none of us remembered to bring ear plugs so we had to make do with tissue papers in our ears. LOL. funny sight. claud got 3rd for 1oom and yeah, im proud of her ! :D:D oh ! i got sunburnt rather badly too. think in looked like some tomato. hahaha. /:

- closing of the event was quite.. sad lah. cried because its the last year alr. AHH. and to think abt it, there's only 6 more months we'll all be tgt. ahh. SAD. ): did an number of stupid and silly stuff. like running around, lying on the grass, singing shan hu hai. liew. LOL. but yeah, I LOVE 406 ! :D:D:D

- rushed down to marine parade after that. took the han brothers and ah du with me. i confessed im a lousy guide. hahaha. we walked and we got lost. LOL. i've been to marine parade's TC anw ! hahaha. called baoyue and she saved me. haha. cabbed down and the place was just less than a street away ! GEK ah. hahaha. so yeah, went in, worship and witness claud's baptism ! WOOHOO. really happy for her man. :D:D hahaha. went to eat after that and OH. RUEBEN CAME ! my lovely ! hahaha. (:


- came home and i slacked. talked on the phone and tried to watch into the mirror but it was so boring i kinda fell asleep. HAHS.





HMMMMMM.

UPDATE of the week.

- lost a BIC on monday and only realised. but have gotten over it and dont want to elaborate much on this. but through him, we gained alot. yes, FCBC-ians ! we're there for each other support ! =D

- mon was also the last guides meeting officially for all the sec4s. aww. quite sad actually. all the 4 years have finally come to an end. hmms. even though we all agreed unanimously that we havent done anything with impact during our reign. gahh. but yeah, we'll move on and besides, we'll still be able to drop by right ?? ( just keeping a positive outlook here, im actually crying like nuts in front of the screen. IM JUST KIDDING. ) hmms, im sure i'll miss everyone lah. esp my sec3s ! talked about the past with min jas and wen after that. we realised we did quite a number of stupid stuff. being nostalgic agn hurh.

- jf called in the night and he was really swt huh. cheered me up alot. haha. wht are friends for ? :D

- was still coping much with grief on tues and talked to claudine. ( oh boy, im suffering frm mental block.! ) lessons were alright i guess. then after school went to wisma with claudine because she wanted to go check out the levi's sale. OHOHOHOH. WE WERE ALMOST KNOCKED BY A CAR ! scary/horibble/traumatizing/ etc. it happened like this alright,

we were discussing how to cross over to wisma frm lucky plaza. ( u know that big road that is always filled with vehicles or smth ? thats the ONE. ) claud claimed there was some underpass that we cld take to go over to wisma but we both werent sure anw. ( yes we are that blur around town. ) so i suggested we walk further down and cross the road because i didnt want to jaywalk over. but i guess claudinechai didnt hear me and she decided to just cross. so we were standing just at the turnabout place where cars usually turn out to the main road and watching out for cars. and i was looking OUT to the main road because there was this bus which was blocking my view. and i was only slightly aware that there's this big BMW car waiting to turn out to the main road. AND U KNOW WHT ?! as the both of us crossed over, that car turned at the same time. so in the end we were at the middle of the road and the car was just less than 1m away frm my hips ! ULTRA SCARY OK. i was stunned, just staring blankly at the hood of the car. hah. time like paused for a second man. lol. and then claudine pulled me to safety. haha. she was shaking like nuts lah, saying things like, " ru guo gang cai mei you la ni, ni jiu si liao lo ! wo hui hen nei jiu de leh ! ying wei shi wo jiao ni jaywalk de ! " and stuff. haha. but aye, i love this girl too much lah. she was saying if really tht pt the car's gna knock me, she'll push me and get herself knocked. haha. i know it sounds dramatic and so not real but i know she'll do so for real. loves !

and yeah, in the end the sale was shi**y and we didnt stay for long. LOL. met up with eve and mich anw.

- wed had class cell. cherry joined us. yups. chn congre ! haha. shared a little and we did praying. WOAH. strongSTRONGstrong. was wonderful lah. :D yups. after tht went to the sch lib to do some studying. yupps. mryap is very very very humorous. haha.

- thurs was the last day of sch for the week. nothing much but it was rather slack. assembly was SLEEPY. there was some play but i wasnt paying attention also. yeah. we ( mich claud me cherry ) went crazy during lunch while finishing the eng proj. ultra funny. CHERRY cant stop singing for nuts. haha. wo yi ye zhang da ~ hahaha. SHE'S ultra funny lah. judging frm our relationship now, i cant believe we used to have xin jies and glaring sessions. hahaha. but that's for another entry and i digress.

after sch chiong-ed home to change and then met up with claud for cell. yups. finally at mel's hse ! hahaha. so long not there alr. so yeah, it was exceptionally good today. rather different from the past. guess its because all our hearts are opened to God alr ! yays ! i cant wait for the work he's gna be doing in our lives ! :D:D

after cell cabbed downt to cherry's church for her good friday svc ? yupps. was quite cool lah. my first time in a pres church. after tht went down to s11 to have dinner. crapped alot and talked nonsense. hahahaha. and her parents sent us home and i was having directional problems. haha. hazardous subject. /:

- ytd was OK. morning went to sao mu with my parents. but of course didnt pray or anything lah. just there to give my respects. was quite scary for once. the feeling. hmms. dont think i'll be going nxt year alr. yupps. so stood under the sun and watched them busied around. then went over to mel's house. slept for some time and we listened to worship songs and did our own actions ! hahaha. then ate and we went down to bm TCT. WOAH. i like the svc ! and many accepted christ on that day too ! praise God ! :D yupps. had a talk with baoyin after that and yeah, i was sorta awakened huh. realised that i havent been relying on Him nowadays and been using my own strength to do things. sorry my lord. it was a good talk, opened my heart once more. i love baoyin-jie ! rocking. haha. always so... STRONG. :D

after that claudine's dad insisted on taking me out to dinner and yeah, thanks hurh ! :D:D talked alot to claudine also, ( we're always so high in the night. tsk. ) and yeah, i dont know but i feel our bond strengthening every day ! and give thanks to Him who made all these happen. :D LOVES.

so yah. thats abt all for the week. mid years are closing on alr huh. hmmms. time to stop procrastinating !

TAG PPL. :D

hello people. im back to blog agn. :D:D

lol. okay, i've been trying my best to update as many as i can alr. but nowadays the comp doesnt interest me much whn nothing happens much in my life to be a cause to be blogged. thats because everyday is wonderful. :D yupp. lol. and besides, my brother's hogging onto the comp like its his life or smth. so u cant blame me too right ? ( hint : jeremy see this. lol. =p )

alright, anw i just came back from encounter weekend ! its ULTRA. SUPERB. POWERFUL. WONDERFUL. S-T-RO-N-G. yes. encountered God like wht the name suggests. and im really glad claudine cld make it and im glad God touched her ! yups. seen the amazing work He's done for her in these 2 days and wht can i say ? im happy for this sister of mine. :D:D GUESS WHT. HER PARENTS LET HER BE BAPTISED ! HOW COOL IS THAT PLS ! miracle ok !!! hahaha. im waiting for mine now. lol. dad says he needs to think it through because its quite of a big decision. was rather disappointed but hey ! God spoke to me and reignited in me the desire of Him. so yes, He has consoled me and told me that as long as i put all in Him, i wld get wht i eventually want. yups. so yes, i hold no grudges and I FEEL GOOD after the weekend ! it was really tiring for the first day because we had to report to sch for flay day first. then we skipped doing and we bought the tins to church at bukit merah. haha. went through all the ministries. GOSH. power ok. lol. rushed back to sch to return the tins. WE FILLED IT WITH OUR OWN MONEY MAN. heartpain. haha. but owells, all for God. :D haha. then cabbed back to bm so it was really pretty rush lah. lol. but im glad God worked in us still the same. LOVES ! :D


today was better. went down and we had deliverance the first thing. woahhh. cut alot of curses and yeah, everything out ! :D:D i dont know how to put it in words but yes, its really a great weekend for both of us. I LOVE HIM MORE AND MORE ! :D:D

yupps. and after that we went for dinner at kfc. ate pizza hut also. hahaha. aunties and us were making such a racket that quite a number kept staring at us. HIGH ok. we laughed like mad, talked like nonsense and had fun like crazy. hahahaha. I LOVE THEM ALL ! my cell rocks totally. hahahaha. THE BAO BAO FAMILY ! hahaha. took alot of pictures and i'll post them up soon huh. :D


oh. i got my phone alr. double yays !

OMG OMG OMG.

I JUST HAD TO BLOG TODAY. a million and one HAPPY things happened to me today ! and i thank God for everything !!! gosh. my day was literally filled with blessings ! :D:D

alright, here goes.

so went back to school tdy. and boy, i woke up earlier than usual but ended up almost late ! alot of traffic today and dad almost got into another accident. this time round, im ultra positive that its the other person's fault ! never on signal and just cut into our line when practically the lane was alr so squeezy alr ! besides, there wasnt even enough space ! but lucky they just (ermm) gestured around and i pushed dad to go along because i was really running late ! it was like 7.2o or smth alr. gosh. /: but praise the almight lord that i rushed just in time ! 7.27 ! wheets ! :D:D
oh. my knee was killing me during the morning assembly alright. just cldnt stand for long. argh. thanks to serhui who became my crutch or smth. hahaha. went to get lift pass after that and as usual a certain staff A was being hard on us. even though there's MC and like bandages, she still give attitude. -shrugs. too bad i managed to get through. blehh.

so yups. lessons were pretty good for the day. chiong-ed chinese like mad cos i didnt want to stay for remedial. hahahaha. didnt felt sleepy and it was good ! prob because God was working in me ! :D:D yups. was quite struggling for some time on deciding if i shld go home straight after school to meet my mum since she wasnt working tdy or to go along with class cell then to sakae with anqi and co to celebrate her bday in advance. chose the latter instead. yups. chem was nuts because i cldnt understand a single thing abt the experiment but we got through. did with claudine though. yups. was rather funny lah. lol.

so after sch chiong-ed to audit there and had our class cell. some stuff cropped up but we managed to solve it all. :D oh, jaslyn joined us today too. :D yups. so prayed, shared and we had individual praying too ! so cool ! gosh gosh gosh. holy spirit was VERY VERY VERY strong today ! im so glad. felt a breakthrough tdy ! whoosh ! so cool lah. and they prayed for me, anjo and then after that we did another praying for claudine and me. STRONG STRONG STRONG ! i can feel it alr ! gosh. i love this man ! :D:D:D:D:D:D yupps.

cabbed down to west mall to meet the girls after that and the driver was pretty nice. :D yups. see, im so blessed lah ! the cab driver offered to give me a discount but i gave him the full amt still. heh. went to sakae to look for them. yups. the waiter was pretty cute ah. very nice also. he gave us his number also because lixuan seems to have a crush on him ! haha. in the end the whole table also have his number. LOL. saw christabel also. yups. pretty girl. lol. bill amounted to 172.1o? haha. cos we had 1o ppl. ultra madness. took quite a lot pictures too. yups. then talked alot also. see? thats why i love them SOSOSOSO muchh. :D:D:D:D hahaha. ( see this ppl ! be touched alright ! lol. ) and this was the only time all 8 of us were around. plus simin and maimiao. haha. i think the 2 of them are hilarious, dont know why. lol.


after that we left and it started raining real badly. took express506 to meet my mum at je instead. went kimage to get hair done. yayys. praise GOD ! :D:D mum trimmed her hair. yups. walked around and we wen to check out n6280 and samsung's new slide phone. the d820 i think. heard its really chic and slim. and that guy at blazing ( im forever patronising their place /: haha ! ) told my mum starhub's getting a promo on tht phone and the price is like really cheap. haha. so mum decided to upgrade my plan and get herself tht phone or smth i think. and that way i can trade in hers and my phone to get my pretty n6280 ! :D:D hahaha. HALLELUJAH ! :D:D

yups. dad picked us up and mum and i were walking around in circles while waiting for him. hahaha. oh my. im in a such a joyous mood i've decided to reply tags ! hahahaha.


EDITED : i just refreshed and saw jeremy's tag so i decided to reply too. lol.

JEREMY. : hahaha. i dont know. i fell ? hahaha. wht always not careful ! lol. im blogging as much as i can alr. u dont like come often also lo. still say. bleh. lol.

YINGXIN. aww. that's nice. i'll miss you ppl alot alot alot too ! loves.

ANQI. hahhaa. U'RE ALWAYS THE ONE BULLYING ME ! but yet always the one communicating with me. hahaha. i love u lah ok. hahaa. and yes, im so used to it. -winks- haha. HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ON SAT ALRIGHT BABE. im sorry i cant spend it with u but u know i'll be with u in spirit ! hahaha. cont to CB ok ! dont slack huh. :D:D lovess.

WEIJIE. haha. ya la. loyal blog reader. im replying now huh. hahahaha. cont tagging ! lol.

a true story ..


There was an old lady who was suffering from anaemia. Every time she went to her regular doctor to take her blood test, the doctor never fails to tell her that her red blood cell count is too low. Never once has she got the news that it was the opposite.

One day, she went back to her regular doctor to have her usual blood test. However, this time round, the doctor realised that her red blood cell count was higher than usual, in fact, it was near normal. For the next few times that this old lady came back for her tests, the results were the same. Puzzled, the doctor couldnt contain himself anymore and he asked the old lady,

" Ma'am, may i ask if there was anything unusual that happened in your life during this period of time ? "

the old lady replied him,

" Oh yes, something did happen. i finally forgave a person that i've held with hatred in me for the past 1o years. "

And from that time onwards, the old lady fully recovered from the illness, all because of her forgiveness and mercy to others.

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yepp. heard tht testimonial from pastor mak on sunday. u know, it never fails to amaze me to hear and see of the power of the Lord. and this little testimonial just reminds me of how i shld be forgiving and be merciful to others, just like the Lord had forgiven his persecutors and me. yupps. thank you Lord Jesus.

ok. missed school today agn bcause my knee hurts like nuts. fell down on sunday ( yes, total embarrrassment. /: ) and it hasnt healed. in fact, i cant even walk properly and i cant stand for too long or bend my knee. aww. had to survive ytd with the lift pass too. whew. so i guess im going to do some studying later. yupps. mug mug mug ! /:

anw, guides was alright ytd. kept getting called up and down to run things but yeah, overall things were okay. yups. had the election for the next leaders since nxt week is the last meeting for all sec4s alr. i suddenly realised how fast time is really going ehh. just a year ago, we were the ones standing up there and making our speeches. and hearing the sec3 speeches ytd, it suddenly dawned on me that we havent changed anything much too. no impact whatsoever. sighs. but i guess some things are just beyond our control and we'll just have to move on huh. but im glad i made really great friends during this time ! aww. i'll miss the 7jianxia loads huh. no more 'guiding' with them anymore. aww.

went for dinner at kfc with lixuan anqi yawen and jinghui. lol. waited like crazy for a transport. lol. wanted to take 183 but it kept getting so full. wanted to cab there but there wasnt any cab. finally took 96 to clem and then train to je. -.-

lessons were overall, pretty okay. was feeling rather sleepy here and there though. did chn presentation but ruennsheng was doing most, in fact all, of the talking while i just did nonsense with the laptop. hahaha. ohh ! our whiteboard's like finally sparkling clean ! hahaha. claud got the whiteboard spray or smth frm GO and they spent an hour cleaning the horrible board. lol.

amaths and bio test coming up on fri ! shuckks.

4more days to go for encounter ! i cant wait ! :D:D:D:D

ps. TAG PEOPLE. the tagboard is getting stagnant. /: