I GIVE UP.


you're hard to fathom.


and i'm tired of being the mindreader for once.


if thats how things are gna be, then let it be. im tired of trying to guess wht u're doing.


cos seriously, i think i'm the silly one afterall the thinking.




BYE.

went back t school tdy with mmf to get the eagles award. yayy. (: hahahaha.


slacked ard in school after that. ohboy, i'm missing nh alr. i miss the muggings. i miss sitting in class with fourosix. i miss crapping with the people sitting next to me while the tcher is talking. i miss my classroom. i miss every.single.thing. ):



took 96 after tht to clem stn. cldnt decide whr to head to. wanted to go town but we were like under-dressed or smth lah. wth, school tee & shorts leh. hahahaha. so we decided to bugis instead and get some stuffs too. had lunch at pasta ! :D yeps. talked too lah. yep. we'll get over it just fine huh. (: loves.


went over to bugis street after tht. walked ard in search for bottoms and tops. alotalotalot ppl leh. i dont like crowds ): hahaha. managed to get a top and a skirt lah. :D weather's fine tdy too ! no rain leh. all bright & sunny. hurray ! hahaha.

went bck to parco after tht cos we were broke alr. lol. got so tempted by all the food but we controlled ourselves lah. haha. den took mrt back to jurong east. yeps. we have almost the same tastes in songs huh (: hahaha.

went library to look for dearest anqi. borrowed books too so ima happy girl now ! haha. :D:D:D:D passed anqi my textbooks & waited with her for her bus. aww. missed her alot lah. havent seen the whole bunch of them since like wht, school closed? ):

im home early tdyyyyy. :D hahaha.

alright, been thinking alot and so, SHOUTOUTS to some below now.

CLAUDINE :D
what can i say man. u're the best lah. thanks for always sticking by me for these 4 years, always that willing to listen to me and yes, even though we have our fights, thanks for that too. thanks for being so open with me and i am glad we can talk anything under the sun. even tho we're headed in different directions, but i know we wont lose contact bec we're bonded in someway alr, and no, im not talking about just being sisters in christ but somehow, we have this bond alr ya? so dont get teary and all about leaving bec we know we'll still meet up and talk nonsense girl. hahaha. thanks for all the jokes, the crap times and yes, i reallyreallyreally go mad with you all the time lah. even though we're different in some ways, we're still similar. hahaha. u're the best pal i cld ever had and i thank god to be able to have met you yah. take care always and yes, do have more confidence in urself lah. studies/friendships/relationships, i know u can handle them all too so dont worry abt the nxt yr ok ? haha. i'll be there alwaysalwaysalways for you if u ever need someone to talk to ! i'll back u up always lah. and lastly, i know this sounds damn cliche but yeah, best friends forever :D hahaha. loveya girl. :D


MMF :D
thanks for all the lovely talks. you're my mountain too yeah. i know i can count on you for a listening ear. thanks like alotalotalot. i still find it so miraculous tht we've become so close lah. :D and yes, i know u'll always be one phone call away! haha. u say the dumbest things and do the silliest things lah, and thats what makes up my day always. thanks for all the encouragement during the tough times, the support whn i thought i cldnt make it. and of course, all the tough and struggles we met in guides, all the headaches and planning, all the bitching and anger, all the fun and laughter. memories huh. yeps. we're just really random & budget ppl too right. my fellow stalker-in-crime. hahahaha ! but seriously, a million thanks and i love you lah. :D must keep in touch alright. we'll meet up for movies/talks/hanging out even if u're bck in school. LOVESSSSSSS. :D


GUANTOU LIM :D
hahaha. i still rmber this nick okayy. haha. i know its like one in a million chances u'll even read this but hey, i still wanna write this lah huh. thank you for all ur sms-es girl. and yes, the encouragement and support. and also, alot of thank yous for pei-ing me always to the library to study for this past year. i guess if it wasnt for you, i'd still be procastinating alot at home before Os lah. thanks for always crapping with me also and yes, stop being polite ah. hahaha. even though we might not be that close for nxt year, i still love you the same lah. u're the one who's still in close touch with me among the 7 of you. :D hahaha. keep organising all those steamboat meetings okay ! i miss all of you lah. haha. and yes, all the best for next year's Os too huh. anything u need help with, u know i'm always here for you. :D


the 7qianxia :D
thanks for pei-ing me during ndp05. i guess its bec of it tht i became close to all of you also lah huh. hahaha. thanks for all the lovely times too. all the MRT talks, the stupid jokes and yes, every single one of you still hold a place in my heart lah. (: i'll miss the times we had at ndp05, on the bus, being the HCI-ians ! hahaha. and of cos, all the steamboat meetings & kbox lah. all of you must take care ah, and take care of guides too. hahaha. and yes, even though im not as close to all of you alr, you ppl are still the best bunch of juniors i've ever meet. :D


foursix'06 :D
will rmber this class in my heart lah. you ppl are amazing. even though we have our conflicts, but at times, the unity is strong enough to make me feel that 4/6 is THE class. haha. all the bitch fights/the quarrels/the ganging up on tchers, oh boy, u guys just make 4/6 complete. and i know that everyone of us makes a difference, even ruennsheng okay. i swear i'll miss all of you. really. mich/cherry/xueli/the twins/wh&tvt, EVERYBODY LAH. thanks for making these 2 years a memorable ones. even though we have our times, but im glad we were all classmates once yeah. good luck to all of you lah. stay in touch too ! (:

6L'02 :D
you.guys.just.rock. hahahaha. i'm glad i met you all bec seriously, im really proud we have managed to keep in touch after sososo long. its really amazing how we meet only like once a yr and yet still be able to do the stupidest&silliest stuff tgt lah. :D and yes, go for 6th year pls. i cant do without a 6L chalet. hahahaha. lovesss. :D

o.. kay.


watched flyboys with my hwq today. finally met up lah, after long procrastination. hahaha. ate BK for lunch, caught up a lil' and yeps. ohboy, flyboys is good. damn good. ahaha. thought it'd be damn boring or smth but it turned out to be smth really good. hahaha. bout war one lah. touching too. :D:D


the male lead. :D hahha. looks damn familiar tho. hahha.


after tht we walked ard, took neos. wahlao, like super long nvr take and we kinda forgot how to operate it. lol. then walked to the mrt loh.

took mrt down to jp to meet claud after tht. uhuh. :D

she was late and we decided to catch the later show of deathnote2. so she had her dinner at ljs and we settled at mcCafe for their ice choc agn. hahahaha. its nice !! and cheaper than coffeebean's too. hahaha. :D loves. hahaha

talked & we went in at 9.50pm. uhh, movie was alright lah. not quite as the comic but yeah, sad ending agn. blah. :x


aye.

might be working in SDC.


forget it. lost the mood to blog. pictures den.


hve u ever wondered..

like something u believed in, turns out to be just a lie? and then it ends up with you being the silly one..


ahh. talking pal, emo days are here agn. sighs.

hmms. spent the day with claud. like finally we met up. hahahaha. :D


woke up pretty late tdy so we met up at ard 2 ? haha. she came over to my area first to get her hp accessories. then went imm for lunch and to get other stuff. yeps. she finally got her n73 lah. happy girl lah. hahaha. walked around somemore and decided to get some movies over to her place to watch. went TS and debated of we shld get FD3 cos it was M18. decided to play safe and got reincarnation and we realised that the person didnt check our ages. so we got FD3 also lah. hahaha. :D:D cabbed over to her place since it was raining. AND OH, IMM'S CUP CORN IS VERY NICE. (: hahahaha.


we drank bailey !! hahaha. like super nice. and we watched FD3 too. super gory pls. but it's damn cool lah. haha. somebody was happily msg-ing someone the whole day also lah huh. :D hahahaha. oops. realised we were wayyy too late for cell so we went jp for dinner instead. haha. bumped into wanyi there and talked abit. then she left first and the both of us went to mcCafe to sit ard. uhuh. talked/caught up/gossiped & drank ice choc. :D:D:D too bad no tiramisu to go along. ahha. but aye, damn sinful lah huh. haha. camwhored too but im too lazy to post the pics. prob nxt time lah. yeps. sat ard till 1o plus and decided to move our butt.

oh, tdy was the first time i reached home in a week before like wht, 12 ? LOL.


busy days ahead. movie dates with HWQ and claud tmr. ahh. tell me im going broke lah. i need a job man. need income. anyone with some help ? hahaha.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL. :D


i think i'm still in time to say this lah huh. hahahaha.

anw, countdown at town ytd, reached home ard 3 plus. realised it's relatively more quiet this yr than the prev yrs. prob its bec of the police stationed around lah huh. did managed to escape all the spraying and all and reach home unscathed. hahaha.

one week more and 2006 wld be over. that's to say alot of ppl will be back in school. ohboy, i think i need to catch up on some badly for this week. sighs.

hmmms, i dont feel like blogging much tdy so yea, i'll go back to robin cook for now. haha.

that'll be all. :D

'i cant see you because if i do, i will never be able to leave you. '

- Dan in closer.

sighs.

watched night at the museum today! ITS SUPER SUPER NICE. hahahah. very very cute and funny ! hahahaha. :D 'my dumbdumb friend wants to talk'. hahahaha. SO CUTE (: and owen wilson's darn funny. LOL. yay. i wanna get the cd whn its out. hahahahaha. (:


anw, met up with 6L gang today lah. :D haha. i think its prob our last gathering alr lah. aye. ): sad ! im gna miss them alotalotalot. :x met up at je first. den train-ed down to marina sq. yeps. had lunch at foodcourt and we caught NATM. (: nice. hahahahaha. and oh, the boys were very interested in borat lah. LOL. just bec its R21 isit. hahaha. but i wanna watch also leh. gah ! ): hahaha.

after movie mabel joined us. then walked around the place a while more before heading over to bugis ting yuan for steamboat. (: haha. but the mala wasnt really hot lah. lol. think terence's disappointed or smth. lol. but it was fun lah. went high with estella after peeling prawns and eating them. (: haha. and we have a good waitress among us lah huh. =p hahahaha.

after that, went to bugis to walk. wanted to have dessert at some place in bencoolen so we walked over. but it was closed alr lah. then decided to head home loh. everyone was so quiet on the way home. think due to tiredness? lol. yeah. and i cldnt stop smiling everytime i looked at estella ? hahaha. gay-ish. hahahahaha. kidding.


ahh, i love 6L'o2. :D

take care terence ! have a safe trip ah ! lol. (:

oh boy ! THE HOLIDAY is ultra/uber/super nice !! hahahaha. veryveryvery sweet. awww ~ and i swear jude law is getting more and more charming alr ! i couldnt stop goggling at him pls. ohboy. hahaha. and cameron diaz DOES looks nicer with blond hair lah. aye. :x even jack black looks so awesomely good in the show. hahahaha. must catch it ! its really good lah. hahahaha. :D
:D

hahahah. anw, went out tdy lah. spsed to meet at 12 and i woke up at 12 instead. ohman. chiong-ed like crazy lah. hahaha. felt so bad making ppl wait for an extra hour. ah. hahaha. went town and lunched at ljs. yeps. got the tickets for the holiday at shaw lido and then went borders to while time. yeps. and as u know, the show's damn good. (: hahahaha !

walked to centerpt after that and ate mac for dinner. walked around, went to life bookshop to get his stuff. yep. then walked like a dozen places to search for TIRAMISU ! got it at paragon's coffeebean cos apparently alot places were sold out. :x hahaha. but its nice. (: i like. hahahaha. talked&talked&talked till 1o3o. then walked to borders agn to get an errand done for his brother. yeps. took mrt & bus-ed home. hahaha. i got good balancing ! LOL. kidding.


oh, cell ytd was good. hahaha. annointing. hahaha. and debate somemore. so cute lah. haha. i love my uncle&aunties 'jiejies' 'korkors' HAHAHAH. ever so young at heart lah them. heh. then had a mini party for xmas. alot of pastries. ahh. always go got free food sia. blessed kids. hahahahaha. yeps. (:


tmr's steamboat and movie outing with 6L gang ! yayyy. (: hahahaha.

super random i know, but my obj was to post jude law up. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :D

ahh ! down with a horrible flu & mild fever. ahh. all bec of the rainy weather. sighs. ):


anw, didnt go to zoo in the end ytd(or rather tues) bec we were afraid that it might rain. so switched to bird park. got up at 9 plus and went over to jp to meet mel & some relatives. they were in spore for holiday lah. so yeah, kinda assumed the role of tour guide with mel. LOL.


PENGUINS ARE FREAKING CUTE. :D:D:D

went sentosa after that. rained like crazy. like madness. like siao. got so freaking drenched lah. hahha. while the tourists were happily in underwater world and dolphin lagoon, we went on the beach tram agn&agn&agn to kill time and thus, got freaking wet. hahahahha. rain super heavy lah. :x then left ard 6plus, headed over to vivo to bring them shop. ate carls jr for dinner. hahaha. kinda expenses fully paid day. =p hahahahaha. left ard 1o plus and it was still raining crazily. reached hme ard 11 plus. :x

ah, let the pics do the talk lah. very tired alr. hahaha.

and oh, winston's birthday bbq today(or rather ytd). RAINING LIKE CRAZY AGN. went with a major flu and was sneezing badly. hahaha. but it was fun lah. my bag got super wet thanks to leonard. LOL. i think he has a fetish for my bag. hahaha. kidding lah. yeps. today was more drenched than ytd and hence, the mild fever. nice eewen's sister sent me&claud home. :D:D hahaha. and oh, eewen&winston got smashed by the coffee cake. lol. ;)

thts it. liverpool vs arsenal now ! (:
i think i'll doze off. hahaha.









aye, click here for the pics on that day. too lazy to post everything up. hahahaha.

SVC WAS AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING. omg. I THANK GOD FOR EVERY SINGLE THING ALRIGHT.

ohboy. i finally managed to pluck myself out of bed this week and get my ass to expo today. like after missing weeks of svc. im sorry lah. really. and IM GLAD I DID GO THIS WEEK. ohboy. i love pastor khong. really. i love God. i prayed for a miracle, i prayed for Him to touch and reignite the passion in me for Him and ohboy, i have to say this. TODAY was the PERFECT day. :D:D:D pastor khong went briefly in the sermon and did more anointing and boy, holy spirit's like ultra/super/uber strong today. really really really. i cant say this and describe it enough but oh yes, He did it. i feel Him agn, i feel like im back with Him agn. and yes Lord, i'm not gna let go of your hand this time round. :D:D:D:D

AND SO. IM A HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY girl today! felt today was like one of the happiest day of my life can. HAHAHAHHA. :D

met up with mum&dad at town with mel&aunt. hahaha. ride to amk was damn long though. hahaha. lunch-ed at central @ taka ! i love that place but the chef isnt ard anymore ! he's off to vivocity to help out and the name of the new restaurant there is damn cool. its hei se hui okay. hahaha. like super cool. LOL. so anw, ate and talked quite alot of rubbish also. :D and we kinda disiao-ed this waiter. my dad actually. tsk. lol.


after lunch went to walk around taka&wisma. mel wanted to get the dress for hui's wedding so we looked around tgt loh. brought her to daniel yam to see if there was any to her liking and yeah, she got her dress there. hahaha. i shld prob start considering whr i shld get mine alr. bah.
so after that, we went to look at heels. then went coffeebean to sit around and talk more. hahaha. i dont know, maybe its bec its like a family day thing so i felt rather happy lah. (: hahaha.

OH ! the decorations at town is very pretty ! alot of nativity stuff. i like((: hahahaha. gives me such a holy feeling and ohboy, christmas-sy. hahahahaha. felt so blessed walking on the streets lah. hahahahahha. took alot of pictures too ! (:

AND SMTH TO END OFF MY HAPPINESS TODAY : IM GOING TO THE ZOO TMR ! DOUBLE YAY ! (:

pictures !


so pretty right the tree ! :D:D

went wen's hse today. haha. a super impromtu decision considering we decided on it like at 5am last night. hahaha. crazy. wanted to go min's hse initially but we forgot she was at malacca. back now i spse. hahaha.


anw, slacked alot at her house lah. played scrabble/laughed at allan wu's hosting at TARA ( seriously, he's damn bad at it. hahaha. ) / ate dinner with her and eeleen / talked alot about med stuff, ghost stories and liverpool(: hahahahaha. yeah. and oh, the usual talks and all too. (: hahaha.

asian doha soccer finals now on. like... super boring. oops.

ohwells, im just glad i made the trip to wen's hse today lah. all the small little things that makes me feel that life's still normal afterall. (:

THE 3OOTH POST !





okay, i know im like damn lag. but i swear happy feet is so cute !!!! hahaha. esp the baby penguins ! look so freaking cuddly can. LOL. i want a penguin for christmas ! :D hahaha. sponser me a trip to the zoo to see one also can lah actually. any nice kind-hearted souls ? :D hahahaha. mambo mambo mambo. quite touching also leh. hahaha. :D

oh, today's (ytd actually) the pae release or smth.. so uhh, congrats to those who got into the school of their choice while for those who didnt, look on the bright side yeah. its just a couple of mnths. (: dont worry eh.


hmms. actually there's quite a lot of things i feel like blogging, but u know, i guess its just one of those times whn u cant place the correct words. sighs.

another day with 6L peeps agn. yays. i love them more&more. hahahahhaha. :D:D:D

went kbox with terence weiquan zhongxian ( he can sing damn well like OMG. ) waijif weisiang jaymond jaslyn eve & ML. damn fun lah, and yeah, it didnt turn out that bad as we all thought it wld. and serious, i think zx's damn pro. hahahaha.

had dinner after that. didnt eat much though. having problems with my stomach agn. blah. /: then had an impromtu decision to watch movie, so caught eragon cos there wasnt happy feet. hahha. its not bad, i like the dragons and the graphics. but too bad, quite few fighting scenes only leh. ): sat at mac to talk nonsense and rubbish and was making hell lot of noise before we decided to leave ard 11 plus. hahaha.


went bck to rulang on tues to get the relief tch thing done with wq terence and ML. haha. then went sakae to have lunch, felt rather bad having to make ML pay for it. nvm, first month pay half to him alr lah. hahahaha. went to rent movies at MJ after that. went home first before meeting up with wq and headed over to terence's hse to watch the movies. hahaha. watched an american haunting ( !!! damn wth. LOL. ) and mindhunter. omg, mindhunter like totally rocks. totally m18 gore. hahahaha. but damn good, too bad my lucas was the killer. freak. hahahahah. but it was good, like really. terence said it was adapted from agatha christie's and then there were none. omg, i didnt know he read her books too. i like that book alot bec its really unexpected. hahaha. so, yeah, damn cool lah mindhunter. i shall go down to MJ someday to get movies also. rather cheap also loh. hahahahha.

eh, im like hyper now. how ar. hahahahaha. lalalalalala ~


oh, met up with MMF on mon. (: went shopping for min's present and did a lil' shopping ourselves at queens. hahaha. talked alot of shit and caught up too lah. damn, i love her alot. my talking pal. (: hahahaha. felt muchmuchmuch better after i let everything out lah. phew. and girl, hope things go smoothly on ur side too huh. loveya(:


i shall stop. bec csi:miami is on alr ! <33333 !

i love my talking pal. (:

ahh. claud's flying off to australia soon. like in 45mins or so. ))))))))))))):


i think i'm gna miss her alotttttttttttttt. oh boyyyy. ):

finally back from chalet. trust me, i'm alr starting to miss everything lah. /:

not gna blog every single detail bec my mind's still pretty fuzzy with the lack of sleep. hahaha. slept for like only 2 hours for the whole 4D3N chalet. lol. broke my own record since last yr for staying awake. hahaha. anw, the chalet's really damn big lah. hahaha. but super inconvenient bec its so ulu !!! hahaha. but still, gotta be thankful at least they got malaysian channels so still can watch soccer sia. hahahaha. otherwise i think all the guys go bonkers alr. lol.

hmms, this yr quite special lah. some of the usual ppl like yuexin didnt turned up while some of the rare ones like jaymond & ws turned up. and i think ws changed alot leh. alot of us cldnt like recognise him even though he has damn long eyelashes. wahlao. lol. good lah, hope nxt year everyone turns up though :D hahaha. that is if we still have one nxt year lah. lol. ( go for 6th year lah ! :D)

ermms, nothing much that we did at the chalet except to bbq, played card games like daidee/stress/bridge! , played sequence ( !!! my fav okay. LOL. ) which is apparently some very cool strategic game but in the end i think i was the only one still high about the game. hahaha. i even brought the game back for ML lah. muahahha. talked alot of nonsense through the nights also, drank alot too ( i cant spell that drink for nuts but its damn good. LOL. ) and jaymond was keen on getting drunk and all, but too bad lah, didnt succeed. LOL. and like omg, watched alot of kids central man. ( barney!!! hahahahahahaah. ) and oh, i learnt how to play mahjong ! LOL. did alot of stupid stuffs also lah, but my brain's like really saturated now alr. hahaha. so i cant rmber much. and eh, i did alot of cleaning ups with zx and jere. lol. alot of dishwashing and mopping the floor! fun leh. hahahahahaha.

and oh, there was this stupid and very lame show on thurs midnight. we actually thought it was some kind of horror show and we even created this scary atmosphere by switching off all the lights and stuff. and then it turns out to be some sadistic murdering show with totally retarded ppl and acting. hahaha. ML and i were laughing like mad at the show. stupid yes, but yet, pretty entertaining also leh. LOL.

so checked out of the place this morning. walked all the way down to downtown there and we took bus to the white sands since the shuttle bus for aloha loyang's like ultra small. haha. mrt-ed to redhill and everyone was like pretty much half dead on the mrt. hahaha. lunch-ed at redhill market then kinda split up alr. haha. went bowling at tamah jurong with zhong xian, jeremy, karyin, wei siang and wai jif. played one game only bec no more energy liao. haha. so watched them play instead. almost fell asleep there alr. hahaha. in fact, i think everyone was alr on the verge lah. lol. then took 98 with wj and omg, we took the wrong direction home and lucky we got off in time and changed to the correct direction. LOL. came back and i just plonked straight down on the bed and slept from 6 till 9 or so. gna get more later lah. lol.

aye aye aye, i miss the chalet alr. hahahahaha. 6L'02 rocks like totally lah. :D:D:D i love every single one of you ppl lah. <333 !


ps: im sorry that this entry's like so disorganised but its the best my brain can make do with now. LOL.

pps : head over to karyin's blog if u want more bec i think her's like so much organised. LOL.

ITS HARDER THAN YOU THINK IT IS.





im trying, but its driving me crazy at the same time.

i finally got a haircut but it's so screwed lah. argh. im nvr gna go to that salon anymore. blah. ):


so anw, went out with my family today. dint attend svc bec i had a really bad sleep and i cldnt wake up in time eh. aye. told u i had insomnia alr. and its getting crazier every night or smth. lol.

so went to toa payoh agn. zzzz. had lunch at some fortunate restaurant or smth. all the dian xins lah. quite nice thought. and oh ! there was this little boy who kept smiling at us. super cute. he was like totally enjoying the tea and the food there. and yeah, i played hide and seek with him after that. hahahaha !


walked around the central after that. mum wanted to get a new phone so we went ard asking prices loh. she traded in her chocolate and got the se z610i. its quite nice loh ! big enough and the design's , like chic. hahaha. the guy in charge was nice also lah. cos he was holding the same phone as me and i complained that n8o can be like really lag sometimes so he helped me installed some software that killed the lag problem. rocks totally. had wanted to go down to nokia tmr to get it fixed but he saved me the trip lah. yays. (: haha.

oh ! there was some National Street Soccer League thing going on also and omg lah, PM Lee was there okay ! totally cool ! hahahaha. and quite alot of ppl lah. alot of cheers and stuff. like u're in some stadium. hahah.

anw, claudine stayed over on friday. went kbox in the afternoon with our sore throats. total disaster lah. hahahaha. but heck lah, just cont and was rather funny lah. lol. then went to imm for dinner with my parents at ajisen. lol. walked around then cabbed home. kinda of an impromptu decision to stay actually. didnt even ask my mum in advance but aye, ask her directly sure okay i guess. hahaha. so we came back, set up the beds and all. we watched tv till bout 2 plus then went into the room. talked and talked and talked until like what, near 6am ? hahaha. talked alot of crazy stuff lah. think we made quite a din also. hahaha. i love that girl lah. lol. and we actually woke up like around 1 the next day. super tired lah. lol.

oh, botak jones at clem is SUPER nice. hahahaha. damn good i swear. lol.

wont be blogging much for the next couple of days bec of chalet. 4d3n. cant wait ! (: