hmms. i wanna the kunda song ! i think. shld be sang by him bahs. the wat tian kong hai mei you xiao yu that song. gahh ! so gekk lehhs. i cant seem to find it. sighs. anyone got that song pls pls sendd me okies ? heh. ((:

hmms. last night watched the nkf show. yeps. managed to spot ms claudine and the rest lahh. hahaha. claud was darn cute. haha. but she looked a lil` pale. haha. and my sms counter hit an amazing amount. 1oo i guess in a day. am so so so dead. haha. thanks to little miss gorgeous. hahaha. and ms prong. LOL. but owells, i hardly do sms nowadays also. so yeps. lalalala. slept around 1 plus last night. fell asleep halfway while watching realmadrid&barcelona. gah ! prong fell asleep too. haha. so much so for our STAYING UP. xp
fell rather lerthargic todae. i dont like my new shoes. i really dont. so HARD can. eeyer. siannns lahs. hehs. changed seats with chunyip the whole day. so was talking to cherry. haha. think im gonna like do badly for my chi test. yeps. that gongji came back anw. piang. he changedd the zaoju. siannn lahhh. haish. ):

had a mini maths remedial with edmundng after school. with du jiafu and hanzhong. yeps. since i was waiting for cherry so i joined them lo. hmms. think i understand sets better le bahh. ((: lalalala. stupidd jiafu. BAH. bully. haha. and he`s freaking -ahem- today. LOL. =p darren is his concubine ! and cheewee is his dog. woof ! jk lahh. haha. lame shit.
went cherry house cos she wanted to get something. yeps. den we took cab to west mall. had BK. talkedd and stuff. went comics connection to get the BRUCE LEE figurine cos cherry was high after seeing one of it on the cab. LOL. but too bad they dont have. gah ! haha. then walked around a lil`. walked her to her piano teacher`s condo. aww. im really nice yah. LOL. jkjk. came home. lalalalala.

hmms. thought of some stuff today. made me realise wat a person i actually am.
feel so loser. all the while i`ve been making promises to myself. and i never seem to fulfill them. i just simply simply lack the determination i guess. and to make up for this lack of fulfilment, i conjure up all sorts of excuses for myself. and i keep putting off those promises. sometimes, if im just so lazy and reluctant to fulfil them, then why in the first place would i want to make that promise ? if i were to do nothing at all, then why make an empty promise ? all the while, i realised i`ve been just blindly walking on. blinded to the surroundings around me. even when i make a mistake, i tell myself that there is always a second try. but then agn, i found out i still repeat the mistakes. how many second chances would i have in my life ? not many i guess. so why dont i make an effort to correct those mistakes ? sighs. LOSER.

friends. all the while, i thought i`ve been quite a good friend. but i realised that thats nothing of a hint of truth in that sentence. all the while, i`ve expected my friends to be there for me. and that my promises to be there for them will stand. BUT agn, how many times have i ever fufil that promise ? sometimes, when they face problems, when they are down, what have i really done to help them ? i dont rmber helping them to cheer up. sometimes, im such a jerk that i choose to run away from helping them. i , who is supposed to help them, to stand by them, am actually the one who chose to avoid instead. and they are in fact the only ones that face reality and figure smth out. i even sometimes get petty over the fact why i couldnt find someone to share my problems with. but then, when there is someone who needs my help, im the one who runs. really. im such a big jerk. dont get me wrong. i really do love all my friends, but i cant stand myself sometimes. sighs.

all my life, i`ve been complaining how life sucks and how unfair it acutally is. ppl say we can choose our own fates. but i`ve never looked beyond the surface of life. with each fall that we made, we learn a lesson. and just sometimes, we dont get the lesson because we refuse to accept the hands that want to help us stand up agn. sometimes, we are alr so blinded by the world that we refuse all help. by we dont know that by actually doing so, we make ourselves more miserable and the world more unfair. if only everyone could face life courageously, and no one tries to hide, will life be better ? if everyone were to willingly accept all the help that are offered and not care about pride and face, will this world be more beautiful ? if all of us could understand wat responsibility and being there for each other meant, would we be more proud of ourselves ?

i dont know. life is such a confusing word.

GAH. i dont think im exactly making sense. must be all that hyper getting to me after last night talk with prong.