hmms. went forests todae for the bio thing. we managed to change shift to the morning one lo. yeahhs. better bahs. more time and the sun not that great bahs. yeahs. but less sleep. was as usual veh reluctant to wake up this morning agn. gah.
todae`s the 2nd le.
ehh.
tmr`s 3rd. its your birthday
the trip was alright bahs. 3o6 mainly in grp7. as in those who changed shift one. went lower pierce or whatever u spell it lahs. got monkeyys lehhs. a lot somemore. veh cool. small small one. yeah. and there were a lot of creepy insects lah. we dint managed to see pythons and snakes tho. =X
damn. it never hurt so much before
we finished pretty early i guess. instructor brought us to some coffeeshop. took a break. watch him eat his roti prata while chatting to him. he`s quite a nice guy lehhs. not bad lah. do this type of job also rather relax ehs. but must have the interest lahs.
i dont know if i`d have the courage to say a simple "happy birthday"
went back to school. fell asleep on the bus. went ginza after that. and then back home.
i really do. i want to fight back the friendship
maths tmr. boring.
hmms. been loss for words recently. like i dont exactly know whats my pt in blogging.
but i reallyreallyreally dont know how..

you know. i really dont see the point of everything. i dont know why im behaving like this either. its really dumb and foolish ehs. no point. but how come i cant stop myself. things shouldnt be like this. long ago the tears should have already stopped. so why are they coming back agn. nobody wanted this ending. nobody wanted this to happen. everyone wants the friendship. i really dint expect that a simple hi can be that difficult. its even harder to look at you in the eye. i really wish all this would end soon. that time can heal the wounds faster. i really really really do treasure everything. can things be salvaged at this point now ?
being unhappy is tiring.