♥ Tuesday, June 14, 2005
hmms. sometimes, things just keep repeating in me. but i just cant stop it. or maybe, its not that i cant, or rather, i dont want to.i think im just a bigbigbig loser. almost died ytd night. just couldnt stop thinking about it. horrible. was listening to tian kong. and i badly wanted to just go to bed. but somehow, everytime i close my eyes, i see you. i really dont get it u know. i was supposed to be like you, over and stuff. pick up let go kinda thing. na de qi fang de xia yeh. but how come its na de qi fang bu xia for me ? sighs. it really suckss alright. i dont know whats happening to me. im getting so anti nowadays. i totally dont want to talk to anyone or anything. its like, i dont know. someone tell me wat to do ? sighs. i still dont bear to take them out of my wallet. it sucks like hell. sometimes, im alr on the verge. but somehow, my hands seems to be stopping and going the reverse way. im psychotic. im going bonkers. i hate the me now. i want back the old me. andtheoldyougosh. i deserve to be shot. its just ... so tough going on pretending like i dont care. i dont even know whats my feelings for you now. its definitely not like the past. i miss you. alot. even as a friendd. damn. forget it. im probably just a loser u met in ur life. BIG BIG BIG LOSER.
yup.thats me.
WENBING slipped on a banana skin @11:01 PM