aye aye aye.

im beginning to lose the touch of blogging alr. sighs.

so pls pardon me for not updating as much.

used to rmber that i like what, blogged every single day alright. and it was just like a compo essay with all my life details exposed to everyone. i think somebody ( cherry i think ) once said that i might as well go write a composition instead. to think of it, i find it rather amusing too. writing all your life's details and letting everyone on the net see the flaws present in your life. and then after sometime later, you start complaining that you have no privacy and be reduced to blogging in drafts. lol. but perhaps it because when you get too true on the net that people start to give comments on your life, and thats when u wont be able to take their comments.

( DIGRESSION: speaking of these people, i really detest and loathe them. i mean like, even if you are not happy with what the person does with his/her life, i believe still that there is no right for you to come and give mean comments and ostracise him/her. its HIS/HER life not yours. so what point does it make to give meaningless comments and then scorn and spam the person's blog. i really dont get it. like you know, just get a life or smth. )

so my point is that, sometimes i do have a urge to come and blog but when i come upon this page, i get really stucked. for example, i would have this idea or that something i want to say. but when i start typing, i cant put them in words and my mind simple just blank out ! ahh. dont u hate times like this. sighs. and when i try to randomly just type an entry to fu yan myself, i'll feel so...... (argh) because i find it so.. rubbish. (?)

BAHHHHH!

alright. i'll promise i'll try to figure out a way to blog like interestingly or smth next time.


been having alot of emotions recently. going through quite a lot of struggles too. you know, when times when u are so oblivious to a certain issue and then suddenly your eyes are opened wide to it and you see the ugly truth ? yeah, and u realise that its so hard to accept it because its just so.. wrong to you.

thats probably what im viewing and feeling right now, i guess.

been so oblivious to the world that when my eyes were opened to it, i felt so lost. like you see the rear ugly side of humans and be shown to the fact of what extent of damage they can do to others' life. their impact on other people's life that would bring so much suffering to them. and when u do get thrown in the face with all these, how would u react ?

i dont know. times like these, i feel really upset. but it serves to me as a reminder of God's grace to me. that without him, my life would be just as shrewed. but with Him, my life has been so filled with love, so filled with blessing. Thank You, Lord. amen. :D

right now, its probably tough to accept the facts but i still have to walk the path. it'll never be easy but i believe i can get by with God beside me.


meanwhile, mid years are just nxt week. so everyone, do jiayou huh.

Lord i pray for your blessings and wisdom to come upon us and guide us through this phrase. For we know with the strength of yours, we'll come out strong. amen.