Suddenly, I feel like I dont belong anywhere.
For a change, I became the observer in this world, instead of the participant supposedly to be jostling around and soaking in the atmosphere of fun & laughter.
And for once, I couldnt be bothered to put in any effort, to try to fit in. Somehow, I felt contented staying this way, having this seemingly non-existent barrier fitting in smugly between me and the passer-bys of the world. I watched them all, laughing, smiling, the light seemed to fall upon them like it was meant to be that way.
That, was when I knew I needed a break. Far more than anyone else needed it.--
Not exactly the finest day I would expect.
Got just one hour of sleep the day before and I kept tossing around in bed. Dragged myself out of bed for svc today. Met Mel and Dc at Expo and we were kinda late lah.
Lord's supper today too. Pastor Mak's message was pretty good today, quite alot of stuff to swallow i guess. Went out for ministry work at the end of service and it did felt good to be able to let everything out, to let the tears flow so naturally, All in God's grace. I think I need more than that but I know God has His plans, so I'm gonna take it slow, lah. Faith, right ?
Took the bus back to BM with Baoyue, Mel and Dc. Slept on the bus because I couldnt take the fatigue anymore. Uhuh. Had chicken rice and shared with Mel. Lol. Havent been there for like near half a year alr. Aww. Miss the place, and I miss the company too. )):
Baoyue left after that and we headed to Bugis. Almost died at BV. Super crowded and I was super pissed off, plus the lack of sleep was making my head ache alot. Rarrr. Was in a terrible mood too. Couldnt take it so we went off to somewhr else to sit while waiting for Mum and Bro to arrive. Went walking around, tried looking for the things I wanted but I couldnt find either. Cabbed home after awhile cause Bro had to prepare for his book-in alr. Yeah.
Came home and I zonked out immediately. Lol. But my head's still hurting alot even after the sleep. Argh.
I think I need A.D to lift up my mood. Lol.
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